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Meditation during Lockdown – A personal Experience

During the Corona lockdown, I started to challenge myself a little bit and decided to deepen my meditation practice. It was the perfect opportunity since I had to work from home – like probably most people who worked in Information Technology. So I stood up early in the morning at 5:15 before drinking coffee and went to the cushion for 1 1/2 hours. I did the same in the evening after work before going to bed. I decided to do it online with a teacher and did it for 45 days without in a row.  

Later my projects at work got very challenging and I had to change the routine and did the practice only at a working day but not at the weekend. On some days I had to shorten the sessions. Today I manage to meditate early 20 minutes in the morning and 30 in the evening. When I’m lucky I find more time at the weekend.

Why do meditation?

I told a little bit our this at last SAP Community Coffee Corner Meet-Uo where we talked about work-life balance and now I like to share it here. I already blogged about Mindfulness Meditation. If you don’t know the benefits I will explain it here again. Everybody will agree that we have to care for our bodies: we brush our teeth, take a shower, and work out (or have at least good resolutions to do so). But what do we do for our minds? The mind need some care, too, because the work in IT business is demaning. We constantly have to solve difficult problems, have to deal with difficult people, we have tough dealines and budgets. We are constantly distracted and it is difficult to keep the mental focus. From my experience meditation is a good way to care for our exhausted minds.

Now I would like to share my experiences after a more intense meditation phase. For me, this is a little bit difficult to explain. Why? Meditation means switching from cognitive thinking to perception. During meditation, one perceives body, mind, thoughts, emotions, volitions, and so on. Unfortunately, those things are not easy to describe – one has to experiences this on its own. But I hope this blog entry could be interesting for someone with meditation skills and wants to deepen it a little bit. 

You might get the impression that I am a very skillful meditator, but the opposite is true. Those things don’t come easy to me and my meditation is often a mess. But I learned not to worry about it. The experiences changes with causes and conditions and slowly you learn how this works.

135 Hours on the Cushion

When I look back, those 45 days have been an amazing experience and I miss it. But it is somewhat difficult to explain why. The 1 1/2 hours in the morning and the evening give your day a structure. And after about 5 days your perception starts to changes and also how you see the world around you. 

Before I go into detail I think I have to explain what mediation is not like – at least for me. When you see pictures people who practice Yoga you often see an image of a woman sitting in a perfect lotus posture on a beach or in front of a waterfall. The hair whips in the wind and she seems to experience pure bliss. For me, the opposite is true. In the morning I’m yawning since I didn’t have coffee, and in the evening some thoughts of works, the Corona situation, and so on came to my mind. But yes, sometimes one experiences deep states and concentration and perhaps bliss. But I found it problematic since one considers it as “perfect meditation experience” and wants to go back into that state. But I find this problematic since I start to judge the meditation experience and tries to “gain” something from it. And this will screw up your meditation because mediation doesn’t mean to achieve anything, it means to pay attention to things that are so close to you that they are easily overlooked.

So what changes during a time of more intense meditation time? I think this can differ from person to person but I experienced the following:

  • You get more focus. In a world full of hyper-information and distraction and is more interested in important news. The interest in TV shows and movies decreases. 
  • You get more aware of habitual patterns.
  • You are interested in details and not just world views or opinions. This can be experienced as “clarity”.
  • You develop a sense of beauty. You see s kind of beauty even in ugly and sad things.

I fear that might sound a little bit esoteric but I think this could be explained by science. When you meditate a lot the experience of yourself and the world around you slows down. Details are getting more and more important instead of experiencing always something new. And the quality of experience seems to change, too. The mind has more time to look examine details. Of course, there are also a lot of subconscious activities during mediation. One gets more aware of own habitual patterns but also asks oneself about priorities in one’s life. I also made the experience that from this place something new can occur. After meditation, I experienced lots of creativity and started new cooking experiments and also little handicraft work. 

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cooking experiment

The art of solitude

It is possible to do your daily work and have an intense meditation practice at the same time. I found the following helpful:

  • Try to keep the concentration during work. Try to complete a task and don’t get distracted.
  • When you work with social media try to do a mindfully. Reserve a certain time slot for chatting on Slack or checking the Facebook timeline. And when it is over, it is over. Don’t let it become a casual activity.
  • Walk outside and enjoy nature. Meditation will sharpen your perception and everything will be more intense.
  • Avoid TV and radio. Focus on important things: talk to your neighbors, pay close attention to the people you meet.
  • Meditation means lerning to let go. You learn to let go of thoughts, likes and dislikes. And this free space can be start for something new.
  • Try out new things that come to your mind. As I wrote above I started kitchen experiments and created little handicrafts like the crepe paper roses on the picture below.
  • During meditation you will be aware of your habits. And if you are annoyed by certain habit just let the go and start something new.

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crepe paper roses

Summary

For me, those 45 days have been an amazing experience. When you do it in a group (perhaps as Zoom course) then it is very easy since you have no choice of leaving the cushion since other people are looking at you. So I recommend meditating in a group with other people. A strict schedule is very helpful. Meditate early in the morning and late in the evening.

I found it very useful to see the 45 days of meditation as an experiment. I didn’t expect anything from it. When I look back I learned a lot about myself and it changed my priorities. And when I think about it I didn’t attain anything – but I helped me to let things go. Medition means to slow down and to let go. This creates a place where new things emerge. Try them out and keep them if you like. And when you start to realize habits that you don’t like, just let them go like you treat thoughts during meditation: let them pass like clouds in the sky. Of course this will take time. But the unconscious will help you since it processes your experiences in the time after a time of intense meditation. 

I recommend this experience to everyone who already has meditation experience. If you don’t have a “robust” meditation practice you should not try this at home. It is better to have a meditation teacher you can ask when during meditation painful thoughts come into your mind.  

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  • Hi Tobias,

    Very interesting post, meditation is really difficult, never gave it a real try like you. For sure I don’t see myself waking up at 5:15 😉

    But I practice Yoga and I experience what you explain as a sense of clarity and beauty, although for me is like being able to view things , not exactly from a distance, but absent of worries or bad emotions.

    And this quite easily changes a long stressing day into just a day with good things and bad things, that you are now in a better state of mind to handle.

    People might make fun of it, but it is a real valid experience that has good results for me. So thanks for sharing and motivating others!

    Felipe

     

     

  • Hi Tobias,

    Thank you so much for sharing with us your thoughts about your meditation experience. I haven’t yet tried meditation, but I have been meaning to do so and plan to take action on that soon, probably in a group or with a teacher as you suggest for beginners.

    This sentence in particular caught my eye:
    “You develop a sense of beauty. You see a kind of beauty even in ugly and sad things.”
    I think we all could use a sense of beauty right now (or really anytime in our always-rushing modern world).

    And Felipe Silva, I can see where Yoga would bring some of that same sense of clarity and beauty. Your comment is motivating to me as well.

    Thank you both again for sharing here with our community.

  • Hi Tobias,

    I just came across your blog post and really enjoyed reading it. I like how you describe your experiences with meditation and think that it helps people yet inexperienced in this area to understand a bit more about it. I still need to establish a daily routine myself but I can only confirm from own experiences that meditating in a group with a coach is nice, and if I think about it further, there is no reason why I should not practice it in general more often, as every time I felt refreshed, relaxed but energetic, too. Thank you, Tobias, for reminding me in such a nice way to establish a stronger routine. 🙂

    By the way, we will have a second Coffee Corner Meet-Up event, and I would love to provide (virtual) room and time for a group meditation. I’m happy to let you know once we have a confirmed date and would love to see you and maybe Felipe Silva and Audrey Stevenson and others meditating together. 🙂

     

  • A shout out to the activity stream – I almost missed commented your great post, Tobias Trapp, as of my vacation! So thanks, Mynyna Chau for doing so and getting me reminded via SAP Community activity stream 🙂

     

    I am so impressed of what you mentioned to us in the first SAP Community Corner Meet-up, Tobias, and it’s just great that you decided to share it with the community. You are a role model in regards of trying and practicing meditation. I also regularly meditate twice a day for approx. 10 min. as I have the feeling this fits much better into my schedule. I also still have the feeling that I have less time since the lock down so these 20 min. per day really helps me to calm down, stay focused, and get “a time off” (besides sports). I think looking after yourself (and that’s probably also what you mentioned with setting new priorities) is one of the most important things these day. So again, thanks very much for sharing and I love Mynyna’s idea of having a life meditation in the next SAP Coffee Corner Meet-up and I hope we will all see us there.

     

    And I love your beautiful crepe paper roses! 🙂

  • very insightful  I am going to try as well I have done mostly on some days and not done continuously I probably need to do it over a 45 day stretch as you mentioned